NOT MYSELF ANYMORE

I was myself till I came across her
I had control over myself till I stopped her at the Castle Road
And looked into those pretty charming eyes of hers
I don’t even know how I approached her
But I found myself talking to her
I wanted to witness to her 
But I  found myself lost in her world

Anti-social was my best friend till she became my friend
Love did I know nothing about till she showed me what it is
Looking into the eyes of someone was the last thing I dreamt of doing
But now looking into those sparkling eyes of hers is all I wanna do
Waking up each morning to see her next to me is all I wish
I’m not myself anymore cos I’m now into her

But now my mind is filled with thousands and millions of what ifs
What if I wake up one day and realize everything I’m feeling now is just a dream?
Then what do I do?
What if I get thrown out of her world?
Then what do I do?
What if she leaves and I become too sociable?
Then what do I do?
What if she leaves with all the love I have?
Then what do I do?
What if she closes those beautiful eyes towards me
And I can’t look into them anymore?
Then what do I do?
What if I wake up one morning and realize she’s far gone?
Then what do I do?
She’s my everything and I’m afraid to lose her
Because losing her is losing everything and leaving nothing to hold on
I’m not myself anymore and I hope it remains like this forever
If it’s possible only in my dreams
Then I don’t wanna wake from this sleep
Because I’m not myself anymore
And I don’t wanna be myself anymore